Sometimes it's just so hard to understand. Life I mean. Why does God let certain things happen? Why does change even exist? I like my days to be planned out so I know exactly what's gonna happen. I like routine, and surprisingly, I like predictability. I'm just a day-by-day kind of girl. But then that's not how the world works. The world love suspense and the unexpected and the cutting edge. Life likes surprising me and changing EVERYTHING. and duh, I know sometimes a surprise that comes completely unexpected can be really amazing and can actually change your life for the better...but I'm just so stuck in Kaitlyn life that I'm not really open to any other way of life. But basically that's what I entered into when I became a Christian. We aren't guaranteed anything except God's eternal love. Otherwise you can kiss your routine, run of the mill life goodbye. We aren't guaranteed any stability in our lives, but it doesn't really matter, because ultimately I think God does it on purpose, to make us rely on Him more. If we're completely stripped of our possessions, friends, homes, pets, whatever, then we will HAVE to go to God for everything! He will be our provider and sustainer. He should be anyways, but seeing as we're cursed sinners, He usually isn't. So I guess change is God's little wake up call when we start to fall asleep out of sheer boredom, because I don't really think life was meant to be the same every stinkin day. No, life was meant to flourish and blossom everyday and grow into something we never could have imagined, even if it's totally painful and we're digging our heels in the entire way. God's gotta get through my thick head somehow, and I guess change is the easiest way.
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