I must be THE most hard headed person EVER. I never learn. I make the same mistakes over and over...only God could love such a silly girl like me. What would I do without him? I need to trust him more fully! And it was so awesome because I just happened to stumble upon this amazing video about trusting God and how everything we're going through now is just preparation for God's plan for our lives in the future. I was like WOW. Thank you! I needed to hear that so bad. I am soooo horrible at relying on God. I actually get sick to my stomach in stressful and overwhelming times and I get these awful break outs and I just feel like the world is crashing down on me. But why don't I get it? God holds my world! Not me. I cannot control anything around me, but God is my sustainer. He is making beautiful things out of my ashes. He is reclaiming what's lost for His purposes. What a blessing my God is. What a mess I am without him!
